its been so long again since ive written here....not much has changed....just working, with the occasional going out with family/friends...i feel like the thing that keeps me going at work is looking towards the weekend, or whichever event i have to look forward to next...for now i look on to october, the next time i get to see len for his bday and the annual rosary for his Lola...actually i am also excited about going to universal with monica and kuya av to celebrate their first anniversary with them....i cant believe its already been a yr!!!! it just seems like last month or something since their wedding....im honored that they want to spend their anniversary with me=)... i think the last time theyve been there was like 8 yrs ago with me also....i think ive been to universal 4 times this year, due to taking family sightseeing n stuff....at least now theres that new ride there, the mummy ride....also ive come to realize little by little how shady the company is that i work for...i dont know it just bothers me of how easily they can get rid of really valuable employees, jsut because theyre temps....i mean i felt the indifference that the company seems to have for the temps and when i got hired on permanently, they were like "now u have a family", so i was like wat was i to u before....i swear it felt weird to hear them acknowledge that they really didnt feel like we were part of their company as temps, even though we were the backbone of the company, busting our butts trying to get things done or we'd get in trouble....since we were always the scapegoats for everything and we were never appreciated for the hard work we did put in...even as permanent now i still dont feel the respect....and recently the company has been showing me even more of how shady they can be, and that it really makes me want to look for another place to work....i mean ive been saying that cuz ive just been so sick of the lack of respect at work by the upper management, but imean all my coworkers are sooo great, that it makes me sad to even think about leaving....but i know i dont want to stay there longer than a yr....cuz i feel like its a position that wont really get me far in the company....and because of the whole company's stigma of my dept i feel like the other depts will never see any of our true potential and that we could never really be anything more than we are now, simply because they wont allow us to....honestly i dont know what their problems are...we do our jobs the best we can despite that we have been shorthanded for a long time, and still they always complain its never good enough....i dont understand we never did anything for them to be so harsh on us...but seriously i feel like we are totally taken for granted for the hard work that we do............it sucks!!!! and the sad thing is that i dont think it will ever get better...theres always going to be those haters that think theyre better than everyone else just cuz of their position and will talk crap and step on everyone...esp us ...to keep t hemselves there or move to higher places........ man as i write this, i feel like im getting more frustrated.........ahh!
on a brighter note, i finished reading The Notebook today and it was soooooooo good...i really cant wait til the movie comes out...ive been trying to look online about when its going to be released, but havent found a date yet...but wooow can that nicholas sparks write......his stories are wonderful, and they give me that warm feeling of love and comfort that i know i have someone that inspires me, just like nicholas sparks has to inspire him to write such heartfelt novels that touch the soul.......i mean i am soo lucky to have the people in my life that have continued to love me unconditionally with each passing moment ...seriously my loving parents and family, my beloved len and dear friends have all built my foundation and continue to help me remain steadfast each day, since they fill me with so much love and support...and before i met len i felt so lost and unsure about soulmates and feeling like i was in a rut, and that i was destined not be find happiness in a significant other........i was already blessed with love from my parents, family and friends.......but i felt so unsure of if i would ever find that love that will bind my soul with another and be sure that i would want to spend the rest of my life with this person....but when len came into my life, through friendship at first...i found so much comfort in him listening to my problems and me trying to help with his.....then as time went by and we were there for each other the most, when times got really difficult.....it drew us closer and i fould that i could tell him anything and he could totally relate....like we've been through so many similar experiences...that it was meant for us to find each other and help each other, since we knew what the other was feeling......and when i fell in love with him, i knew that i was no longer going to question of how i would know when id found my soulmate........i knew that he was and is my soulmate and he has made me the happiest i can be and right from the beginning of our relationship i knew that he was the one i was going to spend the rest of my life with........=) woow i feel so sentimental right now..........when is notebook coming out on dvd! theres so many people i want to share this movie with.......i must go now cuz i have work tomorrow....good nite!