what a crazy bad day! i mean i guess its bad cuz of the stuff that i had to go through, but i mean at least im safe so thats good.....i went to the mechanic cuz i had a leak of coolant last nite....then i thought everything was ok...got to glendale and my car overheated...had to get it towed...dude why couldnt it overheat sooner so i didnt have to spend so much on extra towing miles...i only have 7 free ones...what i wouldnt give to have the premiere service again with the 100 miles...i asked and they only offer it if u call less than two times in a yr...ive already called twice and i still have til november for my next yr......so i had to pay for that and then i was frantic on trying to catch a train to get to school.....i was mainly concerned about lab, cuz i dont know when i can make up that work....i totally thought watever was wrong with my car was going to take all day to fix .....thank goodness auntie glo was able to take me to the train station......the van nuys station is the only station i know..i didnt even know if it had the route to csula....so i figured id take it to union station...auntie glo wanted to wait til i checked the times but i had no idea where to start looking so i said she could just go cuz i thought for sure i was going to take a train...the next one wasnt until 3pm!...so i figured it was too late to call auntie glo back and i felt so bad cuz she already drove me there...so i walked from the van nuys station til woodman/roscoe.....which was freakin far in the heat!! it took me like an hour to walk there with my bookbag....and then i just missed the bus by 10 mins....so i had to wait another hour for the next one.....
i called the shop and apparently my car was already done...so my car was done even before i boarded the bus.....my trek from the train station started at 12pm....i didnt get on the bus til 2:45 and i got home at 3pm..so it took me like 3 hours to go wat like less than 4 miles??
i walked 2 miles and bussed the rest.....i probably should have just walked all the way but i was soooo tired and it was freakin hot esp with my books.....
im just worried about my classes today...mostly my lab...i emailed my ta cuz he didnt give us a phone number to reach him but up til now he hasnt emailed back, so i hope everything will be ok...i tried calling the professor too since shes head of the lab, but i dont know how she reacted to my msg....my lectures i can get notes from classmates....so hopefully everything turns out ok.....esp since i have a lab assignment due on thursday.....
so i just drove my car around with my dad and it seems ok of course its just side streets and its night.....im scared cuz i have a field trip all the way in long beach tomorrow and im scared its going to overheat again.....so im praying of course that everything is ok with my classes and that my car is ok too!
i felt sooo alone today.....i mean i know theres a group of people who care about me and hope that im ok....maybe its just that i feel like i dont want to ask anyone for help cuz i feel so bad...if my dad hadnt asked auntie glo to pick me up earlier, i prob woulda waited there for my car....cuz i just feel bad asking anyone for favors...then i started feeling sorry for myself that i was feeling sooo alone.........i dont know im weird....i mean alot of times i feel like my group of friends gets smaller and smaller every yr....its true what they told me that after high school, there will be less n less friends....and thats totally true for me i guess cuz im shy or such a homebody.....but i feel like im the only person that its happening to, and everyone else around me has soooo many friends and everyone parties n stuff....i dont know i never was into it i guess, but i feel like since im not....im losing friends?? maybe its cuz i never make the effort or i should try harder?? but in my own eyes, i feel like i do try...but i guess its not enough......like for example...my old coworkers i totally thought id still be kicking it with all of them, but ive only emailed/called a few and i havent really hung out with anyone yet and its been like 2 months....i guess everyone is waiting for me to email while ive been waiting for everyone else to email me?? i know i should email everyone so ill probably do that...esp since midterms are over and i can put more time into the emails n stuff.....oh well....woe is me.....of course i totally love and cherish all my family n close friends i have in my life right now.....i guess maybe im just missing also the ones that have come n gone within each passing yr or the ones that i feel like im losing touch with....
