these last two weeks ive been working a 6am to 3pm shift.....the first day i went to explore down kanan and looked for the beach...i found it after a really curvy road and it was soo beautiful.... i ended up in zuma at first and i kept driving down, got some starbucks and then parked my car along the pch....it was coool going to the beach just to chill, but the water was still dirty cuz of the runoff......and i was just staring off and then i saw some random splashes in the water, and i was like oh my gosh! i hope no one is drowning or something.....and then i saw a fin!!! they were dolphins!!!! yay!!! i love dolphins! i was sooo excited! since i got there i was totally taking all these pics with my camera phone, but how i wished i had my film camera to take dope pics and zoom in on those dolphins!!!! i was soo excited to see them....they didnt jump that high tho, but as they swam along u can tell they were dolphins and there were soooo many of them swimming by and i didnt know they swam that close to shore....i work six 6-3 again next week, so i might go to the beach again sometime after work on a nice day with my film camera handy....also on the way home, i wanted to take a street that wasnt that dark and winding, so i ended up on sunset, which was still winding but at least i had some civilization around me.....some rich neighborhoods tho, like pacific palisades and brentwood.........then after a realllly long time i ended up on the 405.....later that week (last friday) i met up kim at paradise cove....she brought brian!!!! i didnt know she was going to bring him...but i was soo excited to meet him!! they are sooooooo adorable together!!!im soo happy for them! we ate there and the atmosphere was cool, cuz it totally felt like we were in hawaii....we had a window table and then the only thing separating us from the waves was the cute patio with tiki torches, lounge tables and a small strip of sand......it was like they had their own private beach....the thing was that the cliff to the right was totally blocking the sunset!!!!! and i had my camera with me and everything!the food was cool, kinda pricey, but it was nice......oh and this time i took las virgenes and it was faster than kanan! i got there in like 15 mins from work! and i ended up right by pepperdine....then i followed kim and brian on pch towards sta monica so i can take the freeway back home, but chris called and he suggested i meet him up at work, but lax.....so i met him at work and he works in a nice ass building!!! i was like i wanna work here!!! everything is all censored, which makes sense cuz its a lab and u dont know wat people have on their hands....my building feels so old compared to his high tech one....then he was like oh we should have lava cake and since i didnt know wat that was, he was on a mission to take me to charthouse where they had it....we went to the marina del rey one but their oven was broken, and then we went back towards malibu to the charthouse there......that restaurant is sooooooo pretty! with the waves crashing up against the window, that would be dope during sunset...we also had to drive through sta monica to get on the pch, cuz we kinda got lost, the apt buildings there are sooooooooo nice! they looked like hotels and we could see into some of the living rooms and they totally looked like they were from a magazine......then we ate the lava cake!!!! it was sooo cute, it actually looked like a volcano....and it was sooooooo yummy! chocolate cake covered with fudge melting around the sides and a scoop of heath bar topping on vanilla ice cream on top, also melting and dripping down the sides....mmmmmmmmmmmmmMMMM! then the next day i went to work for a few hours and then i met up with kim in simi and then went to the new lnl for hawaiian food, and then she took me to tutu's hawaiian ice cream and i had haupia ice cream.....that was sooooooooooo yummy too!!!! and it was the cutest place...made me feel like i was in hawaii! soooo it was such a beach themed week, with a hawaiian weekend! i was glad that i got to explore and find my way around...wat an adventure! then this past monday, chris and i went to le champagne bakery for lunch....it was soo yummy! and we saw nia peebles eating there and shes soooooo short! we also saw john schroder (sp?) clark's dad from smallville.....i was soo excited ehhee......then it was a stressful week at work as usual and now its the weekend again! yay!

the year 2005 is here and its flying by already....but alot of bad things have happened this past month around the world and immediately around me too...so many natural disasters and so many friends who have loved ones in the hospital or losing loved ones...its sooo sad...and then i get scared of getting older cuz i know that its a closer time to where im going to be dealing with that as well with my family and friends...and my loved ones around me will be dealing with it more as well with their family and friends.....its really scary to me...like im so apprehensive and scared already of knowing how ill feel when i go through that, cuz i know itll be very hard for me to deal with things like that....i totally cherish all my family and friends and i want them to be around forever......i know we should all make most of the moments that we have with all of our loved ones, and i usually always try to do that....but yet i feel like i only see everyone few times a year when i know that i want to see them all the time....its so hard with everyone's schedule to gather all in one place....but i am very thankful for all those times that i did get to spend with everyone....especially this past holiday i felt like it lasted like a whole month for me cuz i was meeting up with fam and friends from the first week of dec all the way until last week...it was reallly good to see everyone...very refreshing to catch with everyone and spend quality time with them....esp with my weirdo schedule im glad that i was able to meet up with friends and fam and that everyone was very flexible with my hours....dang i havent written since november! it has been a while...ehhehe as usual the same routine for me work sleep eat errands talk on the phone when i can and see loved ones once in a blue moon .....thats me...and then just when i thought things were looking up at work, they turn for the worst again! seriously theres some conspiracy against my immediate dept for us not to move up...and then while we have been doing a superb job, instead of the heads being satisfied, they give us twice the amount of stuff and with less people!...it was good that an earlier shift rotation was going to start, cuz we'd have to take on more responsibilites and those have to be done early in the morning from m-f, but its killing the rest of the people left to pick up the rest of the slack, cuz we'd lose those the people to morning shift, while the rest of the 6 hours and all day saturday, we're working double the pace and double the samples!....and then since people ar still getting hired, its hard to tell when theyll train through everything and if theylll even stay! cuz the last girl quit after a week.... everything got plopped on us all at one time, while we were losing one of our team to another position and we havent done all the hiring yet ....basically i was sad cuz i was supposed to train soon with that shift next week, but i dont know if ill get to anymore cuz we're struggling as a team with two less people doing the training that they might change the remaining weeks to only one person doing that shift , which would most prob be the ones that already trained last week...so the rest of us prob wont get a chance to go for a while, cuz for us to get trained, the part of the team that knows already has to train the rest of us, so thatll always require 2 people for the shift.....and i was so excited that we were starting that shift already too, like finally something that benefits us, like a chance at an earlier m-f shift, cuz we thought there was no chance at all for a shift like that to open for us in our dept.....so everything is up in the air....another annoying thing is that alot of us want to move to another position for more money and to learn more, but we all have to be six months there before we can apply to another position...wat sucks is that ive been there for almost 9 months but the first 3 months thatt i did as temp dont count, even tho all those fools have seen me working there for so long! i swear all these excuses...and with our luck..hella positions opened up at year end, and with being a month and a half shy of 6 months, none of us could have applied...we did try talking to the heads, but they told us to look for openings and when there were openings, hr would say "oh ure not 6 months yet" or there was the question if our manager was going to even let us try tyo appply cuz "oh ure not 6 months yet" his weapon of keeping us as long as he can...and now that its nearing 6 months when now would be a good time to apply, cuz by the time the whole process is done, we woulda been 6 months and we could start a new position....of course theres no positions avail cuz they were all taken like 2 weeks ago by outsiders!....and there are no postings watsoever at work...and i search online to see if there are openings and there is one!!! they dont even post inside work, where ud figure that thats the first place hr would post! how shady is that! i dont understand why they would do that but it totaly feels its cuz they're trying to keep us where we are cuz we're doing well...its so frustrating...i mean if the company would give us all more money for piling so much more crap on us all of a sudden, we would all be ok....but its sooo unfair that theyre paying us the same and they expect us to work with sooooo much more stuff to do and when the machine comes, they should definately pay us more cuz our duties are going to change significantly. on top of wat we normally do added to the new crap they want us to do and running the machine!....but thts not even sure either....so were getting jipped no matter where we look at work! totallly feel like were slaves....its so unfair...and we should say something but to whom? feel like we cant trust anyone there cuz theyre all conspiring against us and we havent done anything but work our butts off and reach goals for the company that theyve been trying to reach for soooo long...its soooooooo frustrating! but i guess it feels better to have written this out....cuz when i say it out loud it makes me even more mad!ehhehe so i duno wat my schedule is going to be next week but i bet with my luck im going to have to come in mon-sat....with only having this sunday off..that sucks! ........but enough about that...... the holidays were good! we went to vegas and we havent spent christmas there in soo long! so we drove up on christmas eve and we stayed at tuscany suites..im glad all the fam liked it there.... and then we had dinner at uncle marlon and auntie alice's place and we were supposed to go to midnight mass but my mom wasnt feeling well so i stayed with her at their house while everyone else went to mass....before that we gambled at sunset station and i won at blackjack! yay! then the next day we watched lani misalucha and society of 7 and it was soooo good! theyre all amazing singers! and then we picked up len from the airport!!!yay!! we then hung out on the strip walking around, then eating and playing games it was fun....then len and i gambled again at sunset station cuz orleans was bad luck for us last time.....and cuz it was good luck for me the day before! but we both lost...no matter wat i played i would lose! and then the next day we went to church and then the fam wanted to go to sunset station again so again we went! joe and i went to hooters cuz he couldnt gamble and everyone else gambled and lost again! so i guess thats my lesson 'never try to milk the same casino more than a day, cuz itll take all their money back and a lot more too!' then we left but there was traffic so it took us 6 hours to get home....then the whole week i was in n out of work cuz i had the flu.....i left early on tues and len picked me up, i called in sick wed, and then thurs i left early again....fri i was ok and that was nye so i went to simi after work ...then we were there for the countdown and we stayed the whole weekend.....len kim and i watched phantom of the opera on sat it was sooo good! cant wait to see the musical.....and then len left that sunday =( then it was back to normal schedule after that, along with meeting up with friends during the weekend to give them christmas gifts or meeting up with old friends that i havent seen in sooooo long! it was reallly nice! now i need to develop all my 3 roles of film....yes im primitive with my FILM camera ehhehe....wow this blog is long! ill write more in a lil bit...