its funny how i can be suuppper tired today at work and now that its sleepy time im wide awake! thank goodness its friday! im up north this week for len's lola's 80th birthday...it should be fun to see all the family again cuz i havent really been up here in a long time, at least before len's birthday this year...its just ive gained so much weight so i hope they dont start gawking at me or anything...like last week i felt sad...my uncle's family came from the philippines and my little cousin is so cute and chubby too...and we all had dinner with the family on saturday and i overheard him making comments about me, i guess he was talking to himself but i knew he was talking about me he said "oink oink siya"...then after dinner his mom was telling him to hug everyone and she pointed to me and he said "taba siya"....so i got really sad..i mean dude its not like he is freakin skinny....and i reminisced about the trips back to the philippines and our cousins would call us fat, when they themselves were not skinny.....and of course we did not retaliate with any comments cuz we knew better...and i mean we rarely see these cousins and i dont want to make remarks about them like that, i just wish my cousins over there had the same sentiment...=( i mean shheeesh how about an "its great to see u...its been so long!!" well what am i talking about? i get those comments when im here in the states too from all my aunts and uncles...do they really think that im amused with the fat comments? do they actually think that that would motivate me to lose the weight?sheesh! i feel so vengeful sometimes like i should gain even more to spite them, but that would just hurt me in the long run....since they claim to be worried about my health, but its pretty obvious that its the appearance they are concerned about....

anyways,so ive been training for a month already! time goes by so fast! we have the classroom training, along with field observations, and days where we practice doing the inspections....we started that this week and i was so nervous!!! and of course one of of the places i ended up being assigned for that day would be one of the roughest areas of la! it was really interesting to see and i was able to write out the reports on many violations, but i was glad when it was over cuz i was so scared! and i almost forgot! i was training in the valley office on wednesday, and we ate around lankershim in studio city at pitfire grill...when we passed by looking for parking i thought they were filming something, but then i realized that they were paparazzi and someone must be inside...so we asked one of the photographers and he said it was tom hanks...so when we got in i kept looking around and i know that tom hanks is tall so i was wondering where he was cuz i couldnt see him and im sure he would be easy to spot..but i saw that the other people were looking in that direction....so we asked the cashier and she said it was lindsay lohan...and i looked and there she was! its weird that theyre just eating within the general crowd...i thought they be in some private area on the corner or something but she was near the door in plain view! u could tell that alot of people were staring at her but seemed unbothered by it....and we sat at a table near her but my back was facing her so i couldnt really look, but i could hear her talking sometimes...then her party sat outside all these paparazzi were running towards her trying to get a pic, but the security ran them off....and i noticed she forgot her lighter, but the chick next to me ended up taking it after i told them and she ended up going to her and giving it back as an excuse to go talk to her and her party...

im getting sleepy now! ill write more later =)