i don't know why but i feel so melancholy...

i know there is my family, fiance, friends all around me and i know they care for me....but with all of that, i still feel alone. i feel like the only person i can really vent to as of now, is myself....and its making me feel this way...i don't want to bother anyone with my petty frustrations...so i'm just always in thought...that i even had a nightmare about work last night! or was it just my cue to get up, and get ready for work!

i feel so stressed out right now...trying to get used to the inspections, while still trying to meet my inspection frequency....sigh...and trying to keep up with my reviews for my license test....(and i can't believe its already been a month since the review!!!) i feel like there is just no time to do anything! and on top of that...every end of the month, i have to help my mom input data into the computer for her day care....i don't even know how i'm going to be able to hang when i start working 7am-5:30pm....i feel like i'd have to go to sleep right when i get home...just like my days in the lab....working 6:30-3pm was harsh! it was nice to get off early...but leaving for work when it was dark in the morning....and going to sleep when i would get home (which would be like 5pm cuz of all the traffic)....i feel like i had no day left to enjoy! gosh i hope it doesn't end up like that for me when i work the longer schedule....at least i work in burbank, so its a lot closer than calabasas!! even so, gas is killing me!! its gone up like 4 cents from yesterday morning til last night and then today it went up again 2 cents!! its ridiculous!

anyways i'm so happy its friday...i should just sleep during the weekend, so i can stop thinking so much about everything...